I have stared at the blank page on my computer screen for the past ten minutes with breaks to check email, Facebook, and order a Christmas present on Amazon.com. Last night, I spoke with someone about how I “used to blog daily” and was intrigued by the conversation as it followed a friend’s comment on Facebook earlier this week: “…btw, did you know you haven’t written since October?! Having withdrawals here you know.”
I want to write a blog post.
I really do. I always have so much to say inside my own head as well as verbally. I always want to sit down and write. But what started out as a little project to slow my racing mind had turned into a demand on my life that I felt I needed to do so that others would be pleased. I found my mood being swayed – positively and negatively – by the number of comments made on posts each day or the number of hits or shares I saw. I would watch the stats of a post and hit refresh every five minutes.
This was not what I had intended to do when I started writing blogs.
And so, I needed to take a break. I shared that publicly back in October – the last post before this one. And the blog went silent.
Last night, I attended a joint Christmas service at our church. It was a joint effort between our church and a group called FreedomWorks, a post-prison ministry for men, which meets in our building on Thursday nights for food, fellowship, and a service. As part of last night’s service, men involved in the ministry (therefore, former prison inmates) shared about their experiences, how the ministry had impacted their lives, and what their lives were now. As they talked and then throughout the singing of Christmas carols, one phrase kept coming to me – “Clean Slate.”
Christmas is a great time to consider how invested in us God is. He cared so much about our state as humans – sinful and separated – that He sent Jesus to us. From that humble day in a stable in Bethlehem, Jesus was on a road to only one place – Calvary – where He would die to pay the price for the sin in me and then rise again to conquer death.
God provided Jesus to give us a clean slate.
I often live my life as if I am carrying around my list of dirty deeds, but that is not what God ever intended me to do. Yes – He wants me to recognize that I am a sinner, but that is simply a truth that I must acknowledge so that I realize my need for Jesus. Once I recognize that need and hold firmly to that truth, I am to live a life of freedom. Galatians 5:1 tells me that “it is for freedom that Christ has set us free.”
Living life with the dirty deed list in one hand does not free me completely do and experience all that God has for me in this life. He wants my hands free and ready to act in love to others. He wants my hands free to experience the blessings He has for me. God wants my heart to be free from the burden of guilt that I carry.
As we consider the manger this Christmas and thank God for all that He has done and will do, I think we need to remember that Christ came to endure life as a man and to die on our behalf to free us – to give us a clean slate. And in living out our freedom in service to God and others, we honor His death until He comes again.