I like to plan. When I take a trip, I make maps, check out restaurants in advance, and sometimes even make sleeping reservations. I like to stay on schedule, and I do not like to simply “wait and see” to much.
My huz tends toward the opposite.
Every Labor Day weekend for the past decade, my huz has been the speaker at Village Creek Bible Camp’s family camp. A few years ago, we left our house for the weekend without plans of where and when to stop and eat on our way. As we drove, I tried to push him to make plans, but he would not.
This angered me.
When asking him to make plans did not work, I tried to make plans for him. This also did not work, and I continued to be upset.
I want to step outside of this story for a minute and state firmly that my man was not doing anything bothersome, malicious, etc. He just wanted to be a bit whimsical rather than being so structured as we almost always are.
We ended up eating at a fine Mexican restaurant with good food.
But my attitude was awful, and nothing could change it.
I wanted things (as I usually – sinfully – do) on my terms, in my way, and – most importantly – in my timing. The fact that things did not go as I planned bothered me.
I had a choice – I could follow his plan, or I could rebel.
As I read through today’s passage, chapter 14 reminded me of how often I rebel against authority – other humans’ authority as well as God’s authority. I want things my way, and other people’s plan rarely seem to be as well thought-out or as well defined as mine.
In the work place, I do believe that I am getting better at this, but life is a hard teacher and often has consequences.
The Israelites found the hard way that rebellion has severe consequences.
Read Numbers 14:20-25.
The Lord replied, “I have forgiven them,as you asked. 21 Nevertheless, as surely as I live and as surely as the glory of the Lord fills the whole earth, 22 not one of those who saw my glory and the signs I performed in Egypt and in the wilderness but who disobeyed me and tested me ten times— 23 not one of them will ever see the land I promised on oath to their ancestors. No one who has treated me with contempt will ever see it. 24 But because my servant Caleb has a different spirit and follows me wholeheartedly, I will bring him into the land he went to, and his descendants will inherit it. 25 Since the Amalekites and the Canaanites are living in the valleys, turn back tomorrow and set out toward the desert along the route to the Red Sea.
When we rebel, God forgives – thank goodness for that! But forgiveness does not always mean that we will be blessed in the same way that we would have been if we had obeyed.
Sadly, I am guessing that I would have been in the same ‘camp’ as the ones who thought the God’s plan was not the right plan. Because I tend to think that I have the right plan, I would have missed out on the Promised Land.
How have you seen this play out in your life – on both sides of the issue? When you have obeyed, what blessings have you experienced?
I realize that this may be a hard thing to share in the comment section. If so, just take some time today to talk this over with God.
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The blog’s purpose is for me (Stacy) to keep track of my reading through the Bible in coordination with my husband’s sermon series in which he preaches on one book of the Bible per week. We are 4 weeks into the series, and the sermons are available online (click here).